Recently, I had a major spiritual wakeup call. A sort of "born again" experience if you will, only that I'd already been a Christian for years. Not a very good one, it seems, but I thought I was doing okay.

On November 4, I looked up a book on artificial intelligence (AI) on Amazon for my day job, and as I was reading the book blurb, all of sudden the page started scrolling down all by itself. It stopped near the bottom, on the selection titled "Books You May Also Like."

Nearly all the books shown were about AI, except for that one book with a cross on the cover and the title, The Warning—Testimonies and Prophecies of the Illumination of Conscience. It seemed intriguing, so I bought the Kindle version... and my world exploded.

I need to add here that since converting from New Age to Christianity—and especially Catholicism a few years back—I had softened my manifestation advice to make it more God-centered. However, the stubborn German in me kept clinging to the remnants of my old, trusted New Age beliefs and practices.

Surely, manifestation itself couldn't be bad, right? After all, Jesus himself said in the New Testament, "Ask and it will be given you; search, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened for you. For everyone who asks receives, and everyone who searches finds, and for everyone who knocks, the door will be opened. Is there anyone among you who, if your child asks for bread, will give a stone? Or if the child asks for a fish, will give a snake? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good things to those who ask him!" (Matthew 7: 7-11)

Two things, though, that I kind of deliberately overlooked was...

1) there was a strong emphasis on asking, not demanding or trying to treat God like a mail order system;

2) these things God doesn't mind you asking Him for probably do not include paying for a boob job, winning the lottery, or getting lucky at the keg party next Saturday.

Not that I think y'all are asking for such frivolous things, but some people are. Recently, one guy asked me on Facebook how he could manifest becoming so flexible that he could bend like rubber. Probably just a troll, but who knows, really.

Anyway, reading The Warning was such a wake-up call, I realized what I'd been doing to make manifestation more "palatable" to Jesus and sort of making it fit into God's grand plan wasn't nearly enough.

Let me tell you briefly what The Warning is about, and then you can close this page and call me a nut job. 

There is this divine event that is supposed to happen. It's also called the "Illumination of Conscience" and the "Mini Judgment," which tells you right away that it won't be pleasant. It is mentioned several times in the New Testament, and over the centuries it's been mentioned and warned about by popes, bishops, nuns, and other people with a direct wire to Jesus, Mother Mary, and various saints, like the children who saw the Marian apparitions in Fatima, Lourdes, Garabandal, and Medjugorje.

In recent years, the messages have become more and more frequent and urgent. Here's what they say:

One day, the sky will go dark and we'll see two celestial bodies collide with a flash and a bang. Then a cross will appear in the sky, and everyone on Earth will go through a kind of "life review" where they will see all of the sins they've ever committed (sins of omission will be in there too, i.e., things they should have done but didn't).

No one will be exempt from this. The Illumination of Conscience will show us bit by bit how we have offended God and hurt Jesus through our sinful lives. People will scream and cry and moan upon seeing the abysmal things they've done in God's eyes. Some of those who didn't believe in God or are especially great sinners might even die from the shock and fright when seeing the true state of their soul—kinda like a real-life Dorian Gray moment. 

This may sound horrific, and it will be, but it's not God's punishment for us. In fact, it's an act of great mercy—to give us one last chance to repent and turn to Him and live good, clean, holy lives the way He wants us to.

So this absolutely terrifying event that will only last fifteen minutes but feel like days, like your soul is burned to ashes, is actually God's gift to us so we don't have to endure the actual punishment. 

Ever since I've read the book, my feeling of urgency has gone through the roof. I am sensing that this is imminent.

No specific date has ever been given, but some of the Marian witnesses knew the time and hour, so they gave some hints. Certain events have to line up; I don't want to talk at length about everything I read, but it is possible that this will happen in 2021, and within the first five months of the year. 

Something Mary said to one of the witnesses indicates that it will happen within the lifetime of Pope Benedict XVI who resigned and made way for the current Pope, Francis.

I checked the news: Benedict XVI is 93 years old and in very frail condition right now. Also, a divine event that is supposed to happen shortly after the Warning will fall on a Thursday, which will be the Feast Day of a "martyr of the Eucharist." 

St. Imelda is a martyr of the Eucharist as she dropped dead at the age of 11 when she received her First Communion. Cause of death: Bliss at the reunion with Her beloved Jesus.

In 2021, her Feast Day falls on a Thursday—May 13. The next time this happens won't be until a decade or so from now. May 13 will also be the Feast Day of the Ascension of Jesus, the original martyr of the Eucharist.

Another weird thing that happened right after I discovered the book: The next day, a casual Facebook friend and devout Christian called me out of the blue. He was a radio show host from Virginia and I'd been on his show several times while I was running for office last year.

He told me he had given up the show and focused more on his other job as a real estate broker. One day, he'd been showing a home to a couple, but they said it was too expensive for them.

Suddenly, an audible voice whispered in his ear, "Sell them your house."

"What?" he said, and the voice repeated, "Sell them your house."

And so, in a giant leap of faith, he did. Now he's ready to move to another state and go where God wants him to go. He said for some reason he felt the urge to call me, and I knew it was so I could tell him about The Warning. 

I'm not saying I know for sure the Illumination of Conscience will happen this year, but I urge you to read the book for yourself and see how you feel about it. For me, it was such a shock to the system that I immediately booked a general confession with our Catholic priest (that's a confession of everything bad you've ever done in your life, from childhood on).

I also started buying up paperback copies of The Warning to hand them to people. Amazingly, I keep running into people who need and want the book. It's like an endless stream of little miracles.  

So what's the point of this crackpot article? What should we do?

As I said, I'm convinced that the Illumination of Conscience is near and that God is calling on each of us to be at our best behavior and make a complete U-turn in our lives: 

• Stop manifesting and start praying. And consider what you'd want to be praying for if you knew that every selfish act would leave a dark mark on your soul. 
• Practice Service to Others, rather than Service to Self. 
• Develop a deep love for God and Jesus, as well as true humility. If you're not a Christian, consider becoming one.
• Read the Bible and pray, pray, pray. Beg God for forgiveness of your sins.  
• Start consulting Jesus for everything you do. Ask him to help you live in accordance with God's will and do the right things... and when he tells you how, go do it.

For Catholics: 

• Go to Mass every week and receive the Eucharist.
• Book a general confession if you haven't had one.
• Pray the Rosary every day if you can manage. At the very least, pray three Hail Marys in the morning and three in the evening. 
• Consecrate yourself to Mary, Queen of Heaven; she will protect you. 

If you think I've gone off the deep end, that is fine with me. But think about this: I risk losing a whole bunch of my manifestation fans by making this move away from manifestation and toward prayer.

I'm the first person who will testify to the fact that it's incredibly tough to make the switch from New Age philosophy to the much stricter and more demanding Christian approach. The New Age tells you that God doesn't have any preferences; do whatever you want because it's all about the experience. Sin doesn't exist, Satan doesn't exist, hell doesn't exist... so no worries, man.

According to a lot of manifestation books, there isn't even a God to be worried about. You are God. Your destiny is in your hands. We are all one, and you are the creator of your own life. As Aleister Crowley said, "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law."

That also happens to be the line of the Dark Side. Do whatever you want, whatever feels good... that's what all the channeled entities (who by the way are all demonic entities) are saying. Follow it, and you'll find it's the straight path to hell and damnation.

But don't worry, as your doctor would say, we caught this early. So please consider what I've told you here and please get the book and read it. And start talking to God. He is real, and if you're sincere, He will start talking back. And then you go from there.

The best way to manifest in 2021 is not to manifest.

I’ve always tried to teach people a more God-aligned method of manifestation, but I’ve recently had a major spiritual awakening and realized that it wasn’t enough.

We are in a time now where we need to stop thinking of “me, me, me” and align ourselves with our true destiny.

The real reason any of us exist is to know God, to love God, and to serve God. Unless you’re doing that in some form or fashion, the ultimate consequences will be horrific.

Yes, I am talking about going to Hell.

I know, crazy, huh? But the fact is that in my nearly 30 years as a New Ager (that I’m just now fully coming out of), I’ve experienced a lot of supernatural things. I know God is real, and I know the devil is real too—and not just as a metaphor for “the evil in the human psyche,” but as a real, independent entity.

I’ve experienced all that, and yet… and yet… for the longest time I thought I could get away with kind of toeing the edge of the pool without jumping into the water.

I thought manifestation was okay if you “aligned your will with that of the Creator.” I thought God wants us to be happy, so why not manifest that house, that job, that car, or whatever.

What I didn’t realize was that the image of God most people in my circles have—of a sentient, benevolent energy that doesn’t want anything, doesn’t judge, and is quite content making all your wishes come true—stems entirely from channeled messages.

And, as I found out years ago, all channeled entities are demonic. Doesn’t matter how benevolent they sound, doesn’t matter what they say (because they will say anything you want to hear, especially stuff like “You can do anything you want,” “There are no rules, only free will,” “You are a Co-Creator/God,” etc.)

All those feel-good messages that give you the warm & fuzzies, that is Satan talking. Remember, the path to Hell is the broad and easy one, the path to Heaven is the steep and narrow one.

So what I learned is that the one true God in fact very much has preferences and rules that He wants us to keep. And if we don’t follow them, we’ll really regret it in the end.

My wakeup call was triggered by being divinely led to the book, The Warning, by Christine Watkins. I highly recommend you read it because I am completely convinced that it is telling the truth.

Every time we’re selfish, shallow, nasty, greedy, unkind, blasphemic, we’re actually hurting Jesus. It’s like crucifying Him all over again.

And the time is very near for His “Warning,” also called the “Illumination of Conscience.” It’ll be a worldwide event that will give us sinners one last chance to turn around and repent and come back to God and what He really wants us to do.

I recommend to stop self-centered manifestation immediately and focus on Service to Others instead. Get baptized, join the church, go to confession, receive the Eucharist, read the Bible, and pray, pray, pray. 

Saving souls is the name of the game now, nothing less, and time is running out.

EDIT: One manifestation technique I’ve been proposing is still good to use: the Goodwill Manifestation (free report here). But make sure to send those blessings in God’s/Jesus’s name.
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I’m about to revamp my website completely, but it will take a while. In the meantime, make sure to stay on the “narrow path.” God bless.

There's no such thing as a 100% success rate in manifestation. When questioned about this, many LOA "gurus" will say you're not doing it right... you're sending mixed messages or aren't ready to receive. When you look at my website posts and letters to my mailing list, you'll see that I wasn't any different. It's hard to admit that you don't know for sure. 

However, in the last few weeks I had a spiritual (re)awakening that has confirmed what I've been moving toward for years now. My only mistake: I didn't go far enough... not by a long shot. 

I believe the reason that you can’t manifest 100% of your desires is that—unlike what most manifestation books tell you—you are not dealing with some “Universe” that like a huge Amazon in the sky mechanically fulfills your orders.

You’re actually dealing with God.

And God has a plan for your life. If you’re in alignment with that plan, things will go swimmingly and everything will fall into place when you’re manifesting. If you’re not in alignment with His plan, your manifestation may either not work, or it may work but will ultimately have unintended and undesirable “side effects.”

We are constantly evolving (or devolving), and though I’ve had decades of manifestation experience, I am no exception. I’ve started some years ago bringing God and Jesus more into my LOA writing, but I recently realized it hasn’t been nearly enough.

I am now convinced that by trying to manifest selfish, frivolous things for yourself, you actually jeopardize your soul. It’s incredibly important to focus on Service to Others rather than Service to Self.
Once you use this kind of “prayer manifestation” and align yourself with God’s will, things will start to unfold in your life that you can’t even imagine. Given free rein in your life, God will use you to serve His plans.
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However, a prayerful and humble attitude is necessary to get there. Start reading the Bible. Ask Jesus to come into your life, to guide you and help you in becoming the best version of yourself… and see what happens.

Many of us have a deep-sitting feeling that we don’t really deserve a better life. Often, these feelings come from low self-esteem acquired somewhere along the way, in our childhood or through dysfunctional relationships... and they present stumbling blocks for our manifestation.

There’s a good exercise that lets you find out the truth of this statement and at the same time “silence your inner nag.” 

Let’s say your dream is to publish a book. 

• Step 1: Write down a simple affirmation that sums up what you want to do; keep it in present tense. Like: “I am now a published author, and my book is on the bestseller list.”
• Now listen to your inner nag, which, I promise you, will immediately pipe up.
• Inner Nag: “You gotta be kidding me. You, writing a book? You don’t have an MFA, you don’t know what the heck you’re doing.”
• So what you do now is take some paper or a notebook and write down your affirmation, over and over. After every repetition, listen for the inner nag and wrote down what it says too. 
• Just note what it says without getting all emotional about it. Try to view the inner nag’s responses with some detachment and just write down its replies.

Such a list could look like this:

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I am now a published author, and my book is on the bestseller list.

Don’t you remember your 3rd-grade English teacher who said you’d never learn grammar?

I am now a published author, and my book is on the bestseller list.

And then she wrote a big, fat F all across your English test so the whole class could see it. 

I am now a published author, and my book is on the bestseller list.

You tried before to submit stuff and got rejected.

I am now a published author, and my book is on the bestseller list.

This is never going to work.

I am now a published author, and my book is on the bestseller list.

Ha! Your name and a bestseller list will never occupy the same space.

I am now a published author, and my book is on the bestseller list.

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Keep going until the inner nag runs out of steam. It usually takes about 15–20 minutes of nonstop writing until that happens.

In the end, you’re left only with your affirmation. Repeat it a few more times, and repeat it again the next day. I recommend 21 days of repetitions.

​Also, visualize yourself at a crowded book signing or author reading, or visualize seeing a bestseller list with your name on it.

I haven’t posted much in the last few months. One reason is that I’m dealing with the results of a huge manifestation that was in the works for quite a few years.

I kept asking God to send me a new mission/challenge, and a way to make a real difference in people’s lives. I didn’t specify it because I knew I wouldn’t pick the right thing for myself if I had to choose.

​I thought I’d be writing books (and I probably still will) or be a counselor. Instead, through a series of blessings in disguise, I was led into politics… the last thing I ever would have thought I’d go into. 

Some of those blessings in disguise along the way looked an awful lot like curses. Living in a state with a Democrat super-majority, after 2016 I turned from Bernie fan to Trump supporter… and lost 99% of my friends in the process.

At some point, I hated visiting Facebook because I’d be yelled at all day long for my opinions. I got kicked out of local social groups, and most of my interactions consisted of arguments. I became extremely defensive and belligerent to protect myself from the onslaught. 

At the same time, I felt compelled to get trained in public speaking, get my teeth fixed, and take on a board position in a non-profit organization… as if in preparation for a job in the limelight. But I had no idea what this job could be.

I thought I did, but I was wrong.

Then the shift happened: I stumbled over the Facebook #WalkAway group, a movement started by gay hairdresser Brandon Straka who after years of fearing and loathing Trump realized that he’d been duped all along and walked away from the Democrat party.

I looked at the stories of people and saw that they went through the same or worse as I had. Some of them were being ostracized by their closest family members for their beliefs and had no one left. I posted my story and received a ton of love, welcoming and kind comments from the group. I friended everyone who replied to my post… over 100 people. 

All of a sudden, I had Facebook friends again!

And even better, they were like-minded spirits who would even jump in and defend me from the constant attacks of the remainder of my liberal “friends” that still hung around. One of my new Facebook friends, a radio show host from Virginia, invited me on his show. Gulp. I was scared to death, but I remembered my own teachings (“Recognize and grab new opportunities”) and said yes. 

I started to look for conservatives in my local area, but they were in hiding, too afraid to identify themselves as such for fear of retribution.

Finally, I came across a post on our local message forum for a meeting of the Republican Town Committee. I hesitated to attend; after all, I wanted nothing to do with politics. But I was desperate enough to meet kindred people that I went. 

It was pretty boring, and I was shocked to see that the entire committee consisted of seven people. I kept in touch, but didn’t attend very often over the next year… until at one meeting where I was present, they said they needed another committee member to keep the committee running.

So I said fine, but didn’t expect to do much. Then they talked about the county committee; there was also an opening—would I be willing? So I said OK to that too. 

I attended the next county committee meeting, which began with a breakfast at a local restaurant. The only available spot was at the table next to a very eloquent man, John Klar, whom I had a great conversation with. We were totally on the same wavelength when it came to policies, and he was a really nice guy. 

When we moved over to the conference room, I realized he was the keynote speaker for the day. I got his email and phone number, but then pretty much forgot about him for the next few months. 

2020 came around, and the town committee chair asked around via email who’d volunteer to be a delegate. I was skeptical (I didn’t want to commit to too great a task), but then learned that all I would have to do was pick and choose people who'd travel to the RNC Convention in the summer. Not too bad, so I did that.

Then I attended the fateful Zoom meeting of the county committee, where—outspoken and opinionated as I am—I countered the speech of the RNC committee chair for Vermont and told the committee flat out that I thought they were doing it all wrong. 

The next day, I received a phone call from Ken H., chair of the county committee, tapping me to run for the office of State Representative for the Lamoille-Washington district. He said we had a two-seat district, but so far only one person was running and he thought I “might be electable.” 

I instantly turned him down. Scary thought--me, running for office? I couldn’t possibly.

Or could I? 

After the phone call with Ken, I had a sleepless night. Had I done the right thing?

I realized that I was saying no to a new opportunity and challenge, something that could turn into a new mission and a change to make a difference in people’s lives… all out of fear of the unknown. 

So the next morning, I called Ken and said, “I’ll do it.”

I jumped with both feet into the preparations. I started reading up on local issues and Vermont politics. I tried to figure out how to get on the ballot. I called a dozen people to find out as much about the election process as possible. I started looking into campaign finance and campaign materials.

After about a week, Ken emailed me saying he’d talked to some other folks on the committee and they thought maybe I didn’t have enough experience yet, maybe I needed to be groomed for a few more years before running, maybe I should let someone else have the spot. 

God couldn’t have plotted this better. Everyone who knows me knows that I have a built-in stubbornness dial. If I’m in doubt about being able to do something, all you need to do is tell me that you think I can’t do it—and my immediate reaction is, “Watch me!”

So that’s what happened. I flat-out refused to withdraw. Miraculously, I had just the night before handed my candidate form into the town clerk’s office, and I’d be damned if I was backing out now. I must also admit that in the privacy of my home office, I had all kinds of choice words for Ken and his “underhanded” behavior.

So I went into overdrive and worked harder than ever. One woman from my town committee told me that John Klar, my buddy from the county meeting, was running for governor and was looking to align with other candidates to form a more united front. I emailed back and forth with John a few times and agreed to become part of his support group. 

I started to get invited to Republican gatherings, State House events, and meet & greets, and got to know loads of like-minded people. I got invited on my Virginian Facebook friend's radio show four times so far. At the end of this month, I might enter the first-ever political debate of my life.

At one point, the county chairs had an informal in-person meeting with the candidates in a park (to enable social distancing), and Ken told me he had only been testing how serious I was about my candidacy. He invited me to visit his church the next Sunday.

I hadn’t been able to attend my own church because I couldn’t bear wearing a mask for over an hour in heat and humidity, but I missed going. Several years earlier, I had converted to Catholicism because it was the closest I could get to what I wanted from church. 

My secret dream had been to attend an evangelical church service, but I hadn’t been able to find this type of church in Vermont in all the years I’d lived here, so I assumed they didn’t exist. I figured I might score some brownie points with Ken and attend his church service just once. When I got there, I noticed two things: A. People came in and talked with masks on, but then took them off as they got seated. B. It was an evangelical church! 

I loved it from first sight. The service was so much more interactive and lively and joyful than any other church service or Mass I’d ever attended. Exactly my cup of tea. Needless to say, I’ve been attending Ken’s church for two months now, and I learned there are several others like this in the area. It’s amazing, because I was actively looking for evangelical churches years ago and couldn’t find any at all. It’s like they popped up like mushrooms after a rain.

Things are still evolving at a breakneck speed. This tale is not finished yet. Will I get elected? I don’t know. I leave it up to God what he wants me to do. If he thinks I should be in the Vermont State House, that’s what will happen. If not, then I’m sure all this networking I’ve done and all the experience and knowledge I’ve gathered will be good for something. It might lead to another step and another… and God knows (literally!) where I’ll end up. 

All I know is that this is precisely where I need to be at this particular moment. I have no clue where I’ll be tomorrow or next week or next month. The manifestation wheels have been set in motion, and my role is now to go with the flow and roll with whatever is presented to me. Jesus has taken the wheel, and all I have to do right now is not obstruct him from handling things. 

I’m super excited about all that’s going right now. I’ve had situations like these several times in my life—like when I was getting ready to move to the US.

If this happens to you sometime, know this: Somehow, you can feel when destiny is at work in your life.

It feels different than your ordinary day-to-day that you’re used to. It’s like there’s electricity in the air… like a low power hum that permeates everything… things are in motion, and all you need to do is stay out of the way to keep that motion going. Signs and synchronicity abound. Small miracles and happy “coincidences” will find you every day. 

Say YES to everything. Only say no if you have a queasy feeling in your gut, or a persistent little voice that tells you not to do this—but don’t mistake your own trepidation and fear of change for actual danger.

Talk to God every day; ask him to guide you and tell you unmistakingly what to do. Ask for signs, and you will get them. Ask for protection, and you will get it. Ask for the courage to say yes and embrace transformation, and you will get it.

Most important: Remember “Thy Will Be Done.”

Preserve your humility and try to avoid the ego traps that will make you fall for the Dark Side’s schemes. Don't manifest frivolous crap. Ask to fulfill your calling. Ask to be of service. Ask to be shown manifestation goals and dreams that will truly make you happy.

Stay on God’s side, and he’ll stay on yours. 

This was years in the making, but since it started, it's been a nonstop rollercoaster ride. It probably could have happened sooner, but I was stalling. I tried to hang on to friends that I had nothing in common with anymore... and circumstances that didn't fit me anymore.

When I finally let go, things happened fast. Within a few months, I found new friends, I found a new church, and I found a new purpose.

As I said, this tale isn’t finished yet. I don’t know where I’ll end up. But I know what’s happening is what God wants for me, and it’s all good. I’ll keep you in the loop.